Date: 10/25/25
Mood: idk like sleepy
first entry mayhaps?
Hello i created this thing yay isnt this so cool
Here have a cookie
I dont want to spend effort adding a cookie image, pretend
Date: 10/26/25
Mood: dead
Umm whoa hi
I need to get off toyhouse
im addicted to getting notifications and stuff from the billions of ppl i follow on there
i dont even like drawing anymore. none of my ocs feel real to me and i only draw them because I feel pressured to do so, like the ppl on toyhouse are gonna kill me if I dont love them all equally
so...... yeah
Date: 10/27/25
Mood: on fire maybe
Headers are 4 losers
genuinely afraid of school
I hate the weekends because i feel unproductive and I jsut end up scrolling on toyhouse for a billion hours, but when its the week i long to do nothing
i dont even have a reason- like I do well academically and i have nice friends and an awesome girlfriend and nobody actively bullies me ig but i still just hate everyhting, ill never be happy no matter what.
like, every time someone texts me i get nervous and ignore it. .. but girl, they LIKE you and want to talk to you!! just say hi or something DONT GHOST THEM BC UR SO BAD AT SOCIALIZING you absolute dissapointment
Date: 10/28/25
Mood: my eyes hurt
Manifesting the Apocolypse
I didnt sleep at all but it was worth it because I finished another book!!! Im like actually addicted to reading which is a pretty good thing to be addicted to in the grand scheme of things i guess.... but i havent slept in multiple days so ummmmm
It was worth it tho!!! Literally i love fiction so much i wish the apocolypse would just start already so i could finally get what i want. Death or glory...... It's pretty good odds id say. Id do anything for the world to shatter and somoene to invent magic or smthn likt that....
The Webtoon dudes have it good..... what I wouldnt give to have my entire world thrown into the 'system' or whtever generic magic thingy they come up w.... i NEED SOMETHING ELSE TO HAPPEN THIS CANT BE EVERYTHING THIS CANT BE EVERYTHING I REFUSE TO BELIVE IT
Date: 10/29/25
Mood: happy for once
COLD
Its so colllddddddd it was a high of SIXTY FIVE DEGREES TODAY and thats insane for Texas so ummmmm we had a snow day even though there wasnt any snow that was a lie i dont know why i said that why did i lie i hate how easily i lie
Date: 10/30/25
Mood: going insane
I wish i didnt care
TOMORROW IS HALLOWEEN AND IM FREAKING OUT WHAT DO I WEAR ARE PEOPLE GOING TO JUDGE ME HELP ME
.....It may or may not be 3am and i may or may not have made an entire costume from scratch in the middle of the night kill me i hate this why do i care so much it isnt fair why does this happen to me i care so much about everyhting and i cant help it no matter what i do its never enough
Goodnight, and wish me luck tomorrow. i hope this was worth it.
Date: 10/31/25
Mood: jkklajfejsjf
Halloween ig
The cold makes me feel so so terrible.
It feels like im dying and nothing is real and i miss my home where its warm all the time and i miss the smell of sunscreen and i miss swimming with my friends
I dont feel cold. im wearing a short sleeved shirt and i still dont feel cold. Ive heard that people feel comfortably warm right before they die of hypothermia, maybe im dying lol
Maybe i wouldnt mind dying, as long as i come back as a ghost. I could watch what everyody does like a fly on the wall. That would be lowk awesome tho
Ok yah, halloween yayyyy
Date: 11/4/25
Mood: sad for no reason
Alive again i swear
Before you say it, yes i know i havent added an entry to this for a few days. I get unmotivated during the weekend.
ANYWAYS ive been coding something for my dad recently, becasue he wants me to be a programmer like him when i grow up. But he knows I dont like coding and he gets really sad sometimes because i dont share his interests... so out of pity im making a roblox game for him bc why not.
its called bloodlust and is a forsaken inspired game... so ummmmm ill tell yall when its out k? YOU'LL PLAY IT RIGHT, k? but its not out yet and i bet ill neveer finish it
Date: 11/5/25
Mood: idk man
Mini entry today
Embroidery can now be added to my list of things i can do sorta. It hurts my fingers, and the needle gets stuck
But i made some pretty cool stars on my convention bag so yay ig
Date: 11/6/25
Mood: sensitive
Nothing matters really
Someone saw me using my phone at school and i got it taken away. That happens all the time to other people, so why does it hurt so much?
Why am i so sensitive to thsi stuff? everyhting anyone ever criticizes me over sticks with me forever and i can never move on no matter how small the thing is
Why do i have to me so sensitive to thsi stuff? Why can't i just be a failure like everyone else?
Date: 11/7/25
Mood: flammable
benadryryrl plzz
ashjknddddddghhhhhhhh
am i hallucinating or idk. idk whats goin on
mah head hurts guhhhhh
they call me sonic ... . cuz i am faster than the speed of lighttttt
they call me sonic!!! At incredible speed im movin my feetttt
lallalallalalal idontremember the words
Date: 4/3/26
Mood: my eye itches
im back
........
guess who remembered they had a neocities?
me heh
still cripplingly addicted to toyhouse, still cripplingly addicted to yaoi, nothing's changed
speaking of yaoi.... you should read "300 years of longing", the first half is SVSSS and the second half is TCGF pretty much. itz also yaoi heh 👅
lallalalalal i think im just trans and in denial, it always starts with the yaoi addiction...